So I've been thinking a lot about relationships lately, having met so many new people and been re-united with old friends. I have had misunderstandings resolved within recent weeks and have had heated debates with one or two of the people who I care deeply about. I now feel I must officially say that I am emotionally...wound up. I want a relationship. I am craving a relationship. Not some fling or a one night stand, but a full on, "My heart bleeds when you hurt me, I love you more than life; Need you more than air" relationship.
I want my Lloyd Dobbler. Watching "Say Anything" for the first time two weekends ago made me realise that as much as I love being single (since I've never really been single before) I am married. I am married to the idea of heterosexual bonding of all kinds, physical and emotional. I long to be held and loved and adored, but more importantly, I want to hold someone else, love someone else, cook for someone else, laugh at private jokes with someone else. Have that someone tell me that, "All they need in this life is me".
Now seriously I know that the last statement I made is not true. People clearly need other things in life other than the love of another person to survive. The point is that it's nice to hear, because you know in that moment where the heart of the person is who spoke those words. I want someone to love me and not leave. To me that's loving a person. You duke it out until the end and you don't give up.
Again...I feel that I need to explain this as there are exceptions. For one, staying in an emotionally pr physically abusive relationship is by no means a sensible thing. So I'm not saying you should be in a relationship that is destructive.
However, I think that if you love the other person you will stick it out and work out your problems and not run. That's the kind of relationship I want.
Unfortunately, this blog won't be completed in one sitting (home calleth) but I will say this...
Love always hopes, trusts and perseveres. Love never Fails.
To be continued...
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